Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you:
not as the world giveth, give I unto you.
Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
JOHN 14:27 KJV
As soon as I turned the page and saw the heading I thought... "This I can't do". I feel it really hard to abandon all the bad things that has happened to me in the past. I blame all my problems on things that happened during my childhood and teens, and I can't get over it. This, for me, will probably be the hardest day to follow.
"We allow ourselves to become "stuck" in the past - even though we know better." p28
I do know better. I know dwelling on the past is not healthy, because I always seem to focus on the negative parts of it, when I know there was probably a lot more positive times than bad. However, i just can't get over it and be at peace with myself.
"Instead of focusing our thoughts and energies on the opportunities of today, we may allow painful memories to fill our minds and sap our strength. We simply can't seem to let go of our pain, so we relieve it again and again ... with predictably unfortunate consequences" p28
"...for many of us, focusing on the future is difficult indeed. Why? Part of the problem has to do with forgiveness. When we find ourselves focusing too intently on the past, it's a sure sign that we need to focus, instead, on a more urgent need: the need to forgive" p29
I find it hard to forgive people, as I blame others for all the problems of my past and present, and nothing is ever my own fault. I always think, if my teacher had not done x, y and z to me, would I have lots of confidence. Or if my parents had participated more in my education, I could be working for NASA right now (I wish). So to me everything is always someone else's fault. I need to forgive people from the past and move on to be at peace, and move on with my own future.
"No amount of anger or bitterness can change what happened yesterday. Tears can't change the past; regrets can't change it. Our worries wont change the past, and neither will our complaints. Simply put, the past, and always will be, the past. FOREVER." p29
"Can you summon both the courage and the wisdom to accept your past and move on with your life? Can you accept the reality that yesterday - and all the yesterdays before it are gone? And, can you entrust all those yesterdays to God?" p29
"...if you've endured a difficult past, learn from it, but don't live in it." p29